9/21

Today was a good day.

I had an appointment to check in on my toe. They told me it’s going well, but they want to check again in 4-6 weeks. They told me to wear a hard sole shoe, but it “wasn’t covered” by insurance. So I opted not to because there’s no point in buying a medical equipment that the base provided, so I’m going to call them tomorrow.

I found a journal from 2 years ago with some tidbits about M. I really enjoyed even just the few entries I made. So I plan to really do some type of journaling everyday. I think writing would be good but also this is more permanent and less wasteful. I could have endless journals of entries but I’m also trying to cut back on “stuff” around the house.

I was going to opt in for another golden coil book, because they’re beautiful and really seem like a good idea. It had daily entry slots that would make me feel more inclined to just a little simple sentence or two for the day… which is really all I need. But typing on here is easy and I can do it quickly.

Here’s hoping I continue. I’ve only said I would 200 times.

Anyway: I stayed home today after the appointment. Me and V just got to spend time together. We kinda did our own things.

I bought him the absolutely incorrect McDonald’s order… when will I learn lol. Then he did some gun work… I did some minimizing and watched some vampire diaries…

Then we went to the store before we picked up M. We went to Menards for a quick gun piece, dropped some stuff off at goodwill and then went to target.

As we were leaving the house… v saw the “meow” picture frame. He saw it in the donation pile and said “wow you’re getting rid of this” and I jokingly said “two big baskets of donation stuff and you pick out the one thing that is yours and take it out even though it hasn’t been touched for a year and you hate stuff on the wall” “yep.” As he immediately hangs it up on the wall haha

When we were at good will he went through the donations with me as we put them in the donation carts, and he literally picked 10 things out of the baskets and kept them.

So much for minimalism….

Anyway as we were driving around B we made a lot of jokes and were just playful, and it continued as we were at target. It’s great to be married to your best friend.

The last year has been really hard for us. I’ve been gone 9 of the last 11 months. It’s not necessarily been hard, but it’s been challenging. We face separation with his job, but it was difficult with the deployment and the TDY to 8R school. (No update here… maybe some day).

I’m happy.

The other day I was taken aback by the state of my own mental health. The fact that I don’t have worries and I don’t have anxiety right now is amazing. In the moment of realization I had a different sort of anxiety “attack”, but I reminded myself that “omg this is amazing stfu”.