Okay, so like I’ve said before i. want. to. start. blogging. Welp, that didn’t happen really since the last time I said that…. or the time before that.
Soooo, this year is my year. I will have a lot of things to write about, and a lot of things going through my head to vent about.. so it makes for the perfect chance to let it all out in written word (even if it’s just me reading this).
We brought in the new year with a celebration at V’s work friend’s house. It wasn’t as eventful as normal parties there, but the calm-ness of it was actually very pleasing for me.
I did however get a life lesson spiel from one of the ladies that was there. She (kinda pushy-ly) told me to have things in my birth plans, and told me post partum care tips… and I was just like.. can I enjoy this 2019 recap on ABC? I just wasn’t in the mood for someone to tell me things I have already read about. You had kids 15 years ago… I get it… congrats…. but I’m just the kind of person that doesn’t like being told “what to do”…. she wasn’t really telling me what to do, but like giving me advice that I just didn’t need or want. Whatever, thank you for trying to help and you had no idea that I didn’t want to listen to you…
Anyway! Here are 10 goals for 2020:
- Be a good mom to my pets and my first born!
- Be a good wife
- Learn to control my emotions, anger, etc.
- Complete 12 credits toward my bachelor’s
- Get back to pre-pregnancy weight by December/ get on a good workout regiment after the baby
- Seek help if I fall victim to PPD
- Blog weekly, if not everyday.
- Continue to decrease total debt, be completely out of credit card debt by December (if feasible)
- Develop a better relationship with God
- Volunteer more (i.e. hockey, animal shelter, zoo)
V said to me on new year’s eve:
“hey I know a resolution for us”
“oh yeah? what’s that?”
“Go on one date per month”
My husband said that??? Yep! Ugh, he’s seriously the best blessing.
Pregnancy update?
I’m almost 33 weeks. I think babe is in position, if not basically in position. We will see if he is at our 36 week appointment, which should be the end of Jan/early Feb. I have an ingrown toenail no thanks to the fact I had one growing up, but also because my feet are swelling. I have terrible back pain, but not really noticing any hip pain. I have started to feel some nausea again, too.
Overall mental health rating: 3 (out of 5)
I’m a little drained is all. My sleep has been really bad, and I’m finding issues with things very easily again. I’m trying to find outlets, and learning how to cope best for myself. I’m interested in talking to a professional, because it can always help, but I just don’t feel like I’m there yet. That’s probably a bad way to think about it. I went to green dot training and the lady kept saying like “fix the problem before it’s a problem” or something like that, and yeah that’s probably smart. BUT if I look back at my life, I’m in the best mental state I’ve ever been in. My husband rocks. Our relationship is blossoming even as we near our one year anniversary. I’m carrying out first child and everything seems rather healthy. Life is pretty good, but I’m always finding the bad….. grrrr
Mom-taño 
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